Hello from Beeville xoxo

[seasidebee_22]

Hello, Lovelies!

I hope this finds all well and enjoying late Spring / Early Summer. Glad to find some of you still here and posting. I cannot claim to have time to catch up right now, but it warms me to see you. Sending you peace and blessings!

I just realized I had not seen any messages here! I found them quite by accident, thank you for sending them. (I didn’t know or remember that feature here.)

Some had enquired about my health, thank you. I wish I could report that all is well in the regard, but I am ---believe it or not---still recovering from having been so sick late last fall early winter. I got slammed with RSV & bronchitis simultaneously. Here it is, six months later, and I am still short of breath sometimes and struggle some days with profound fatigue. My doctor said 6 to 8 months to recover. Such was the severity of my illness. I scoffed at her, but she was right. The whole experience was bloody awful, from the illness itself to the doctor I had to see as mine was out of the office at that time. Anyway, flash forward to now, making slow progress. Some days it feels like one step forward and two steps back, and I get very down and feeling as if I may never feel like “myself” again. Then I have a good day, and that attitude passes in favor of my typically optimistic one.

I’ve been working the whole while, I just pace myself as my duties are many. I may have mentioned back on LJ that in the last few years I started writing grants for our organization, along with my other responsibilities, and I have had great success (to the tune of nearly four million dollars!) with that. Other individuals and agencies have begun to enquire about me moonlighting for them as grant writer, as the industry I work in desperately needs them, but none of our partnering or peer agencies have grant writers on staff. My intent is to take them up on those offers as soon as I get a home office set up, for which I have opened a dedicated savings account. My hope is to have enough by the middle or late next year to purchase what I need to pursue that 2^nd stream of income.

On a personal level my life is pretty quiet. I spend what social time I feel like spending predominantly with family right now. (My younger brother and his family, and my Mother.) Occasionally with friends, who are very understanding and supportive of my low energy and fatigue. Like me, they know this version of me is not going to last forever. Even though it has felt like it. Work feels like more than enough “activity” and social interaction right now most days, and I look forward to going home where it is peaceful, cozy and quiet. I read a lot, listen to a lot of music and radio, stretch and meditate, create, write, tend to the business of my life and the currents of my health. My wee abode---aka Raven's Roost or Crow's Nest as my peeps call it-- o'er the sea brings me great joy daily. It is my sanctuary, my haven. I am so fortunate to live here! (Even now when town is chockablock full of tourists.) I am mostly content, though some days a little sad because breathlessness and fatigue at this age when the rest of me is relatively healthy SUCKS. I want to feel like I felt before all this. The other piece is that now I also feel apprehensive about getting ANYTHING respiratory again. I was scary sick. I am so thankful for the people who looked after my needs, leaving things outside my door and texting (I couldn’t speak----lost my voice entirely for weeks!! My throat also still does not feel “normal” as a result of coughing fits that nearly turned me inside out. It gets sore easier now.) Anyway, I mean it when I say I am mostly content, and grateful, but I do so look forward to the point in time when I feel more like myself most days instead of just some days. Respiratory illnesses have been my Achilles heel since I was a child. I am also doing breathwork to help strengthen my lungs (book Breath by James Nestor.) Fingers crossed that it is helping!

I wish I could find a way to post some pictures of some of my creations. This site does not seem to let us upload? Anyway, I didn’t intend to ramble, and wish I had more interesting things to report. Ha ha. Stay tuned! I may well have some yet, in the future! Have a good summer you all! Sending bucket loads of good will and good vibes your way. XO BEE

Comments

[ratunderpaper]

HUGS TO BEE IN BEEVILLE <3

Thanks, Bee!

[taylorj1037]

I just saw your post -- it's more than a month old now. I've been wondering about you for a while -- so sorry to hear you've been sick -- hope you're making more progress with the breathwork! We caught something similar but not as serious on a trip to Houston in late May and are still getting over it. My wife's infection was bad enough we had to go to the ER a couple weeks ago where they diagnosed pneumonia. We're still both coughing occasionally.

I'm so glad to hear your grant writing is taking off -- congratulations! Your organization is lucky to have someone with your skills, and I'm so glad you can offer your services to others in need.

I hope you'll continue to check in and share your news.

In case you don't see mine, we moved from Wisconsin to Louisiana a year ago. In some ways, it feels like we're in a foreign country where they speak something close to English. It hasn't quite been everything we'd hoped for, as our friends here are very busy, so we don't see them enough. We're missing some things about the Midwest more than we thought we would, though not the snow.

My wife is facing some health challenges. She had a breast biopsy today and we find out on Thursday whether it's cancer. I got laid off in February when my job was eliminated, but found work in mid-June with a national news organization. Unfortunately, it's contract work without benefits, so we're trying to figure out health insurance and how to afford everything that will come if the biopsy comes back positive for cancer. We'll see what happens.

Take care!

[ahorrasi]

where are you? do you still exist somewhere?